I don't remember exactly how it came up in conversation, but Cecily asked me yesterday if I would die for Daniel.
That's kind of a big question. I've never really felt that I would unwaveringly give my life for anyone. Instinct tells us to do everything possible to stay alive, so it's hard to imagine yourself jumping in front of a bullet for anything. I've been asked that question before about friends and relatives, and I've always said "yes" not out of true certainty but out of a sort of societal obligation to do so. Saying no is saying that you're heartless. But it's hard to make these kinds of decisions when you're not actually faced with the necessity to decide. So when she asked, I settled for an honest "I don't know."
Then today, driving home from my workout, Coldplay's "Yellow" came on the radio. Maybe it's weird that something like that triggered the epiphany, but the line "for you I'd bleed myself dry" hit me hard. And I realized the truth of the statement as I sang along to it. I realize as I'm writing this how insanely cheesy it sounds, but for him I really would bleed myself dry. I would do anything for him.
Look at the stars.
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do.
Yeah they were all yellow.
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